merry christmas!

music on iTunes: So Lady/Mary J Blige/The Breakthrough


I just came back from midnight mass. for some reason, i kept thinking about high school. the rev kinda looked like father ed, my headmaster from St. Benedict's. i started to think of how grown i thought i was in high school. the school really bred young men and once I was a senior, I felt I could take on the world with my bare hands. yeah. until college dumbed me down again. lol. eariler in the evening, i was at my uncle's house for a small christmas gathering. i was the oldest "kid" there so i felt left out and..old. i just keep looking at the kids and wondering if i was that loud and obnoxious when i was their age. i imagine i was a quiet child who sat in the corner playing with cars and trains. i wd look at the other kids in udder disgust like "these kids are too wild for me" and carry on with my car and trains. yeah.. i envison myself as a sort of child snob. lol

christmas has grown into something very different for me. it is no longer the "day i get to open gifts". it is more like thanksgiving 2.0 in my mind. but it is all good. i do not really care for gifts anymore. i just want to see others happy and myself happy. i want to continue to be healthy and see others healthy. i want the kids i work with to achieve their academic and personal goals. i want strength to achieve my own.

i continue to pray for positive people in my life. ignorant, complacent, and fake people can stay away from me.

2006, yo. time continues to fly.

******

something i learned today: "there is no there, over there"- gertrude stein
what do u think this means?!?
i have my thoughts but who cares about me


something not to do: drink 2 caramel lattes in the evening. i wd tell u what this is doing to me, but i do not want to gross you out.

something that was cool today: seeing my cousin geraldine after several years of not seeing her. she was like our adopted little sister. we were always at their house and vice versa. i dunno what happened but this all stopped. years wd pass. today, i saw her after, imma say 10 years. she will be entering her freshmen yr in high school next yr. how crazy. it was real nice to see her again.


anyway,

God bless you.